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ABOUT MY PERSONAL HELL


MY DECENT TO HELL AND BACK



I just started working at a prestigious company downtown, with a good salary and advantages to go with it.  The Job consisted of a lot of brainstorming to come up with better ideas to organize the way things were done, and was a work in progress. I was really happy to finally land a decent job, and so was my family.  Unfortunately my Mother was sick in the hospital when I started working, and two weeks later she died of pneumonia (she was sick for over 14yrs, & her immune system was weak).  This is when my personal Hell began, in March 2008!!

My work was stressful, and all I could think of was my Mom, she was also my best friend as well. I couldn’t talk to her anymore, and we would talk every day, all I wanted to do was cry. This is when I went to see a doctor, and I was prescribed antidepressants. After about a year has passed and I started having pain in my legs and back, but I had fallen a couple of years back, and thought it was due to that. It became so painful to walk, that for a 15min. walk to work I would sometimes take a Taxi. Afterwards I lost my job, but not due to the way I was feeling, but due to restructuration.

I found a Doctor to follow me; she did blood tests, an MRI, and a photographic test of my Bones.  Nothing was found, yet regardless of pain medication taken I still was in pain, and didn’t feel well overall. The Doctor moved to a private sector, and I had no family Doctor, therefore when I was having bad pain I went to a clinic.

THE DIAGNOSIS

One day in September, 2010, I went to my Local Hospital, and deep down I wished they would find out what was wrong with me. When I got there I was in bad shaped, constipated from the un-inflammatory meds. And an X-Ray showed that my Pelvis was broken and I was in a lot of pain. I had gone to this Hospital more than once for my pain, and the only thing they did was prescribe me pain medication and go home.

One Doctor there decided to take my dossier and figure out what was wrong, she told me I was anemic for over a year and my pelvis was broken for no reason. She decided to do more tests, which included blood and a 24hr urine test. With the results of the tests and two specialists to help her find the right diagnosis, I was finally told I had Multiple Myeloma, which meant nothing to me at that moment.  I was told the disease is in my blood and that it destroys my bones, also it was treatable but not curable.  I found out later it was Cancer and I had to go through chmiotheraphy.  Wow, I wanted to know, but not this!!

THE TREATMENTS

I was immediately referred to a Doctor in another Hospital, had a bone biopsy done, and a series of different kinds of X-Rays.  The diagnosis was confirmed and I started chemo right away and this for 3 months, at two times a week.  Afterwards she told me since I am younger than most (46) that have this disease, that we would go the aggressive route.  I would have a stem cell transplant, from my own cells.  I would have an aggressive form of chemo first, and then a pic line put in with two tubes.  They would take out my own stem cells, and then treat them, and they would be put back in me. Wow, technology today!!  The treatment would consist of one month stay at the hospital in a controlled environment, since my immune system would be at zero with more aggressive chemo.  This was the worst part of the treatment; I had to stop smoking…and one month stay…like in a prison.  The pain of this treatment was HELL, stomach pain, nausea, loss of hair etc…

I could have gotten out earlier yet I had very bad diarrhea every day, this had to pass first, and I got 2 stomach scans to see if everything was all right. Everything was fine and I was out after 3 weeks. My Myeloma was stable at the moment but not in remission yet.

I had a talk with my boyfriend of 12 yrs that life was short, and we never know when we are going to go, yet with my experience, I might have 5yrs or more, no one can say since each case is different.  Therefore I told him that I would like it that we finally get Married, and my dream is to take a real Vacation by plane on a Beach somewhere. My Mom always wanted to go on a Vacation but never had the money or health to go, I wished that I wouldn’t have to wait until it was too late.

Well after the treatments that ended in March of 2011, we set a date to get married in July at home in our back yard. Luckily enough we even got money for our Honeymoon, which we took in Cuba at Varedero at the Sandals Hotel. The Wedding was epic and the Vacation a real dream….everything was perfect except I had to wear a wig.

After all the treatments I had my Cancer was still there and still needed treatment, so another treatment was started around September 2011 until the present, until in remission (Revlimid with dex).  I still wish to take another Vacation this year, hopefully I will be feeling better to go.

HOW ALTERNATIVE HEALING CAME ABOUT

I then started to look for other ways to help me Heal and get better, to finally take that other Vacation.  This is when I first found this site, which sounds incredible, and gives a free Healing Trial of Mind Power over Healing;


I will use this Blog to give out more information on how this will help me, as well as other methods….thinking of Yoga next, Occult Magic, etc…  I will be giving out the sites I use, and whatever free info and E-books that I will find.  I hope that you will follow me in my experiments, and encourage me as well.

Until Next Time....
 

1 comment:

  1. Am now following your blog :-) I look forward to reading your upcoming posts. Keep up the good work!

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